Last day of February, the 28th. It's been a month since my driving course started. To me, it wasn't easy. The form of communication wasn't what I expected it to be, it's worst. The usuage of vulgarities is just....stunning.

I couldn't say much, as I myself have also succumb to the usage of the vulgarities. For now, I am left with two weeks, and I will be able to pass out with a military driving license. That is, I hope I can pass my TP before 13th March. Otherwise, I would have to stay till I pass it, and those who pass will leave this forsaken place by 13th March. My TP is on the 7th of March, which is one week away from now. My driving skill is not as good, I don't know how to put it in words, but it's not that I am scared of driving a big vehicle, it's my trainer. Sometimes, it's just the fear of making mistakes, and being scolded for making stupid mistakes despite that I have been driving for a period of time; the lack of improvement.

No doubt it's tiring, but it's the attitude and tone of how you talk to people affects the other. Being treated like a idiot, and complaining to other people of how your trainee perform will not help in increasing his morale in driving.

I guess I said enough, thinking of it makes it worst. I can only take it as it comes.

Take care people, the weather has been hot lately. Drink more water.

Many people asked,why my face always look so sad and emo.
I would reply, "Haha,it's my default face."
Smiling denotes happiness, or returning a gesture when someone smiles at you.

Right now, my face is wiped off of that smile.
Because I failed my Public Road Assessment twice, when others made it with one try.
It's quite depressing when most of my friends are starting to drive on 3 tonner, and I am still stucked at driving a LandRover.
Most of the time I did ok, but only till the moment when I took the test, my heart would skipped a bit, resulting in stupid mistakes which failed me reasonably.

After all, I guess this is army. There isn't a day that is not stressful to me.
Why is the assessor so strict in the first place?
The accessor would have it's reasons like, "We are training you, when you take your TP with your 3tonner, the tester is from SAF one. More strict and fierce."

Accept it and look forward, smiling uses less muscles and frowning.
Maybe smiling more will make me less tired and pass my assessment tomorrow.

I frowned too much yesterday and today, I'm tired now.

Wish me luck!

It's Chinese New Year! Though I don't really feel the mood this year. Who knows why. My course has already started for 2 weeks plus. It wasn't really what I expected it to be, increased usage of vulgarities in camp, dusty bunks, and the food. The vulgarities are getting my nerves, particularly when the parking instructor did a demo, and everyone couldn't follow what he did. He would just swear across the the carpark at that person with strings of vulgarities. It makes that person feels humiliated and making other trainees tensed up. It maybe the hot weather that adds on to the emotions I guess. The hot afternoon sun already did it's part, by demarcating my right arm from black and white. I was also shocked when I went back to bunk and saw that my right arm is darker than my left. -_-''' And it's only my forearms that are tanned.

Assessments and tests was also something that I didn't expect. Soon, I will be driving a bigger vehicle, provided I pass my assessment. Adding on, an oral assessment on Wednesday which my theory instructor said that only a minority will pass on the first try.

On the bright side, my friends (same vocation and bunk) will be there to help me if I need help. I never thought we would bond so much even though I only get to know more than half of them only when our driver course started, as I was doing guard duty for a period of time and they were doing something else. Besides the constant "encouragement" to tell that someone (er....guess la.long story), just because I was stupid enough to disclose 4 numbers to them. -__-''' Now it's say or the pestering will continue. LOL! I hope we will all make it through the course.

Now, it's bedtime. Tired. Take care people.

imtiredofwaiting.wantingtotakethefirststepbutafraidofoutcome.

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