Last day of February, the 28th. It's been a month since my driving course started. To me, it wasn't easy. The form of communication wasn't what I expected it to be, it's worst. The usuage of vulgarities is just....stunning.

I couldn't say much, as I myself have also succumb to the usage of the vulgarities. For now, I am left with two weeks, and I will be able to pass out with a military driving license. That is, I hope I can pass my TP before 13th March. Otherwise, I would have to stay till I pass it, and those who pass will leave this forsaken place by 13th March. My TP is on the 7th of March, which is one week away from now. My driving skill is not as good, I don't know how to put it in words, but it's not that I am scared of driving a big vehicle, it's my trainer. Sometimes, it's just the fear of making mistakes, and being scolded for making stupid mistakes despite that I have been driving for a period of time; the lack of improvement.

No doubt it's tiring, but it's the attitude and tone of how you talk to people affects the other. Being treated like a idiot, and complaining to other people of how your trainee perform will not help in increasing his morale in driving.

I guess I said enough, thinking of it makes it worst. I can only take it as it comes.

Take care people, the weather has been hot lately. Drink more water.

Many people asked,why my face always look so sad and emo.
I would reply, "Haha,it's my default face."
Smiling denotes happiness, or returning a gesture when someone smiles at you.

Right now, my face is wiped off of that smile.
Because I failed my Public Road Assessment twice, when others made it with one try.
It's quite depressing when most of my friends are starting to drive on 3 tonner, and I am still stucked at driving a LandRover.
Most of the time I did ok, but only till the moment when I took the test, my heart would skipped a bit, resulting in stupid mistakes which failed me reasonably.

After all, I guess this is army. There isn't a day that is not stressful to me.
Why is the assessor so strict in the first place?
The accessor would have it's reasons like, "We are training you, when you take your TP with your 3tonner, the tester is from SAF one. More strict and fierce."

Accept it and look forward, smiling uses less muscles and frowning.
Maybe smiling more will make me less tired and pass my assessment tomorrow.

I frowned too much yesterday and today, I'm tired now.

Wish me luck!

It's Chinese New Year! Though I don't really feel the mood this year. Who knows why. My course has already started for 2 weeks plus. It wasn't really what I expected it to be, increased usage of vulgarities in camp, dusty bunks, and the food. The vulgarities are getting my nerves, particularly when the parking instructor did a demo, and everyone couldn't follow what he did. He would just swear across the the carpark at that person with strings of vulgarities. It makes that person feels humiliated and making other trainees tensed up. It maybe the hot weather that adds on to the emotions I guess. The hot afternoon sun already did it's part, by demarcating my right arm from black and white. I was also shocked when I went back to bunk and saw that my right arm is darker than my left. -_-''' And it's only my forearms that are tanned.

Assessments and tests was also something that I didn't expect. Soon, I will be driving a bigger vehicle, provided I pass my assessment. Adding on, an oral assessment on Wednesday which my theory instructor said that only a minority will pass on the first try.

On the bright side, my friends (same vocation and bunk) will be there to help me if I need help. I never thought we would bond so much even though I only get to know more than half of them only when our driver course started, as I was doing guard duty for a period of time and they were doing something else. Besides the constant "encouragement" to tell that someone (er....guess la.long story), just because I was stupid enough to disclose 4 numbers to them. -__-''' Now it's say or the pestering will continue. LOL! I hope we will all make it through the course.

Now, it's bedtime. Tired. Take care people.

imtiredofwaiting.wantingtotakethefirststepbutafraidofoutcome.

ilikeherbutdontdaretosay
你要等到什么时候啊白痴?

COOL! HAHAHAH.

4 weeks into life after BMT, others may have already started their unit training but I am only starting mine tomorrow. Half elated, and the other half not looking forward to it. Past 4 weeks was a much more easy life compared to others who had like outfields, and siong*tough* in-camp trainings. I did guard duties, like what a normal RP will do after their course. Had irregular sleep times, and some long duty hours. Even though I don't quite really enjoy the stay, but in retrospect, it's not bad afterall. Learned new things, and I guess I still need to buck up on my communication skills hahaha.

A stay-in for me from tomorrow onwards, somehow not wanting to know how does the bunk environment feels and look like after hearing what others said when they went there for 2 days and kena rejected. Hopefully it's tolerable.

My hands itching for design. I miss Sketchup!! hahahaha.

Shall end with.....MYSTERY!!!

Once bitten twice shy;emo-ing brings me nowhere.
Affected by someone's words weeks ago,I can't seem to get over it.
I refuse to accept it,the fact? Or how some people perceive me.
Now what am I supposed to do?
I guess some stuff have to experience it,teaching won't help.

Super Junior, It's You.

it's you

Let me hear your voice, by Big Bang. (:

HAHAHA.What on Earth is self potato? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ROFL!!

boo.

Happy New Year everyone. Hope year 2010 will be a good year for everyone. No, I should say it will be a good year for everyone! (:

i maybe wrong,but i somehow am afraid of losing you.

(:

As Christmas is over, a new year is coming. Look on the bright side is just what I wanna do for the new year. Nothing else. That's Law of Attraction! (:

Time flies, memories worth reminiscing and some otherwise. I guess NS changed my perspective a lot, I think it does to most people. You realize not everyone is nice around you. Some things may not turn out as you expected to be. Like, I always thought being an IC is something fun and challenging to take on. However, I am eating my words now. I was appointed (unexpectedly) to be the IC of a group at my induction programme. NOT FUN, and it's STRESSFUL. Haha,but it's still good experience. Two more days!

At this period last year, I guess it was the most memorable. Christmas, first time I dealt with live Pine trees, and doing decorations that I never thought I will be touching in my life. I somehow miss the hectic times that I once went through during my IAP. Rushing for Christmas décor, and staying up late to rush for the deadlines. People might think that I'm crazy, but it's some experience that I would like to go through, at least I would learn something useful from it.

I guess I missed a lot of stuff, heard that SBG had 150 fresh Pine trees all around the gardens (it's the 150th Anniversary if some might not know), and I was most of the time lazy to leave my house and go down to take a look. Well, I was sick right after I POP. Till my birthday.

So I had a few meetups here and there, not much though, and I went to look for Nisa. Glad that she's still doing fine, ever bubbly, hahaha. Others, I guess they are doing fine, from either reading their blogs or chatting with them online. The meeting is taking forever to happen, hahah it's nobody's fault when everyone's schedule is packed, and the guys booking in.

Ohh well, I shall stop here for now. My right knee hurts like crap, is it the weather? D:

say or dont say?

I could only stand by the side and do nothing.
All I could do was just smile it off.
The motivation is not there anymore.
What happen to me?



I am addicted to this song, Wedding Dress by Taeyang.

Yes, new change. After two years.and two days. My last change was 14dec2007.and now its 16dec2009. So now I can say byebye to my old aeroplane blogskin.

<<< I made it myself.

Nothing much I wanna blog about. Wanted to blog a lot,but somehow I forgot what I wanted to type.

Ok will update soon again. Tired.

Mucuna bennettii

Mucuna bennettii (Red Jade Vine), a vine with pendulous red showy flowers. Something like Strongylodon macrobotrys (Jade Vine), but its rarer. I came across it in a book about Singapore as a garden city when I was at Harris today. Didnt buy the book though, but the showy flowers somehow caught my attention.

Mucuna bennettii originated from New Guinea but can be grown in the tropics. I cant remember the location of the plant stated inside of the book. I guess it needs an adequate amount of space to grow this woody vine.

I got the pictures from toptropicals.com. :)

So yupps, that's it for now. I can use my computer only to two weeks later as I will be confine for this following weekend due to sit test. So just wanna update abit..

My left thumb feels numb now, hope I dont get any infection from the ET blade cut.zz..

So till now, take care peeps!! The cold weather is coming once again...somehow I wish to go back to my IAP period and start decorating places for Christmas...I missed those times.......

why? do i only learn swimming at this age?
sucks.

Cut down on the vulgarities please.

Shagged.

Will I survive...?

P.S My bro just asked if I got do pushups everyday while in camp,and I told him that I have to wake up at 0530 to do exercise. And he said no wonder my arms look bigger. HAHAH.