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2012-01-15T10:58:00.003+08:00

make a guess!

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2012-01-15T10:58:00.001+08:00

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2010-10-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

Taken on 16th Oct 2010, foyer outside United Square’s Macdonalds

Went out to the Pentax outing for the first time,didnt interact much but seeing the number of members in the Pentax family,it's quite heartwarming. I was using my A50mm F2, a manual lens and I am loving it. The bokeh it gives, and it's slowly teaching me the way into photography. Tempted with purchase of more and more lenses, but my pocket is not big enough. So this lens will stick with me for quite a while. (:

2010-10-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hope

Taken on 10 Oct 2010, along Raffles Hotel

2010-10-17T12:59:00.000+08:00

Taken on 8th Oct 2010, One North @ Buona Vista

Love the planet, Love the Earth (3rd Oct 2010)

2010-10-17T12:21:00.001+08:00

Taken on 3rd Oct 2010, NAFA, Department of Junior Arts.

They had a 2 day exhibition of NAFA students' works on 'Love the planet, Love the Earth', and conducted workshops for various age groups from P1 to Sec4 using recycled materials.

2010-10-09T11:43:00.000+08:00

Pose

Taken on 3rd October 2010, near NAFA (I couldn't remember where)

2010-10-08T17:05:00.000+08:00

Out of the norm

Taken on 26th September 2010, Hidayah’s Wedding @ Seng Kang Rivervale Crescent

2010-10-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

Cute

Taken on 26th September 2010, Hidayah's Wedding @ Seng Kang Rivervale Crescent

2010-10-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

Vast

Taken on 26th September 2010, outside Buang Kok MRT

2010-10-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

爱,请问这么走?

Taken on 3rd October 2010, Middle Road.

2010-10-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

Moving along

Taken on 25th September 2010, Hotel Rendezvous.

2010-09-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

My style

Taken on 25th September 2010, SMU Seminar Room 4.2, Pentax Training Session

2010-09-26T22:48:00.004+08:00

Because you are in front of my eyes, everything else looks purblind to me.

Taken on 25th September 2010, SMU Seminar Room 4.2

2010-09-24T21:08:00.003+08:00

Everyone's life starts from a pair of shoe.
As you start walking in it, your life experience starts here.

Be it happy,sad,bitter or sweet.

Taken on 2nd September 2010, Chinatown

2010-09-23T22:04:00.001+08:00

This bitter sweet misery is making my head stop/spin/stop/spin in an infinite cycle.

Taken on 7th August 2010, Resort World Sentosa.

2010-09-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I really hope my wish will come true.

But it doesnt.

Taken on 4th August 2010, Sembawang Shopping Centre's Starbucks

2010-09-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder why all these things happen to me.

It's just too hard for me to handle, too big a blow.

Even before the week starts, I am already not looking forward to it coming.

Being independent is not easy, you judged me, saying I am capable of being independent.

I can be, if I know my stuff. Stop arrowing me with work that I had no clue on how to do, and where to find the information from. I was wrong, thinking you are someone that I can look up to.

Now I am feeling unjustified on my work scope. Just because you people don't trust him with the work, I should be the one taking up the job. I never knew, that I will be doing these kind of stuff, and carrying two people's workload is crazy. I am a human, there are limitations. Stop treating me like I am an efficient worker that will get your job done perfectly and quickly.

This post is filled with angst. I should stop here. By just thinking of what I might be doing for the rest of the week, it's giving me headaches. Maybe I am taking too hard to heart, then...I would ask..how not to? I am feeling so emo now :(

2010-09-19T13:50:00.002+08:00

Trapped

Taken on 10th September 2010, Kampong Glam

2010-09-19T13:47:00.001+08:00

Leaving

Take on 10th September 2010, Kampong Glam

2010-09-19T13:46:00.001+08:00

Worlds apart

Taken on 10th September 2010, Arab Street.

2010-09-19T13:43:00.001+08:00

Step up

Taken on 13 September 2010, Clarke Quay Mrt Station.

KL Trip!! (30th Aug to 1st Sept 2010)

2010-09-05T21:43:00.006+08:00

KL Trip Black and White!

2010-09-05T21:19:00.006+08:00

KL Trip Last day: AWESOME LUNCH and Pit Stops!

KL Trip!! (30th Aug to 1st Sept 2010)

2010-09-05T20:42:00.009+08:00

KL Trip Night Scenery,Durians and SUUPPPPEEERRRRRRR!

KL Trip!! (30th Aug to 1st Sept 2010)

2010-09-05T20:28:00.005+08:00

KL Trip DINNER TIMEEEEE!

KL Trip!! (30th Aug to 1st Sept 2010)

2010-09-05T19:29:00.015+08:00

KL Trip Day 1 till before Dinner!

Potrait shots of my friends (18th August 2010)

2010-08-22T22:34:00.009+08:00

Because I'm happy when I'm with them (: [Portraits]

Louis

Zhuan Kai

Ivan

Ying Liang

Xian Ying

Josiah

Yong Chang, Joseph

Yong Hao

Leong Kok, Xian Ying

Adrian

QM, er..Benjamin?

Jian Xiang

Joseph

Celebration - Tau Huay Shop near Chong Pang Camp (18th August 2010)

2010-08-22T22:17:00.009+08:00

Because I'm happy when I'm with them (: [Part Two]

Dinner - Xin Wang Cafe (18th August 2010)

2010-08-22T21:51:00.012+08:00

Because I'm happy when I'm with them (: [Part One]

Marina Square - Prize Stage (14th August 2010)

2010-08-15T12:09:00.005+08:00

Toami-gyo

I want that Wii please.

Marina Bay Sands (8th & 9th August 2010)

2010-08-13T21:39:00.006+08:00

Marina Bay Sands

Halo

Nightlife

The fire of the night

Drink or die,his actions was weird after he drank.

Surreal

"Water to sober up anyone?"

Photos taken by my friends, post processing done by me.

The Drunkard

The loveys

For more photos,my friends,it's on my Facebook.

Singapore Botanic Garden / Resort World Sentosa (7th August 2010)

2010-08-13T21:30:00.006+08:00

Singapore Botanic Garden

Resort World Sentosa

For more photos,my friends,it's on my Facebook.

Spending the nights out with the stars (4th August 2010)

2010-08-13T21:16:00.004+08:00

For more photos,my friends,it's on my Facebook.

31st July 2010, Helix bridge and HomeTeam NS

2010-08-13T21:03:00.004+08:00

For more photos,my friends,it's on my Facebook.

2010-07-11T16:23:00.001+08:00

Retro 90's

2010-07-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

In retrospect speaking up would end this.

2010-07-10T11:49:00.002+08:00

Hold on to it..stand by me..

2010-07-08T19:50:00.001+08:00

My Profession, My Interest, My Love.

2010-07-07T23:25:00.003+08:00

Sometime, I just wanna take breather from all the happenings...

2010-07-07T07:01:00.003+08:00

One by itself, why did it fell without others...?

2010-07-05T22:53:00.002+08:00

Would you? For your comfort, and to lead me....

2010-06-29T23:05:00.002+08:00

Give me something to believe in, cos I am just living by breathing air..

My world, is turning colorless...monotone...

F.M.L

2010-06-25T20:19:00.002+08:00

Went back to NP today, to meet my friends, Mark and XueFen.
Going back there brings back a lot of good memories, I miss those days in school.
Talking about plants also made me happy,
I guess it really lighten me up, from all the emo-ness that I am inflicting on myself.

Mark said I was expecting too much for my NS life.
Maybe I was, maybe I should just let it go, and finish it.
But I couldn't, it's not that I don't like the camp,
I prioritize my interests over the benefits that I am getting.
I would rather feel tired from doing something that I enjoy doing,
rather than getting tired doing stuff that I don't like at all,
and helping other people do work that they can't finish.

I feel more tired in the latter, because my mind couldn't focus on what I am doing.
Even though my workload was mangeable (quite slack I would say)
and I had to cover up for someone elses'
because he is incompetent, and everyone refuses to let him do the job.
Everything eventually went down to me.
In the first place, why is he here? And why put me here?

I don't know..now I feel lethargic going to camp these days.

XueFen went to enrol for University of Queensland, Bachelor in Applied Science.
And I found out that the school fees per annum is a whooping $38,000.
If I were to go, where am I suppose to get the money?
And it's not even inclusive of accommodation and travelling costs.

I am tired......why am I feeling so tired everytime...?

2010-06-25T12:42:00.000+08:00

借酒消愁 is not the way to get out of problems.
But I am addicted to it...

2010-06-18T00:38:00.005+08:00

If you were to give me a Pentax K-X dual kit,
I may not even be happy.

I think, it's just too hard for me to let go.
I have been denying the fact that actually something is there holding me back.

My entries are repetitive,
there's not much for me to express anymore.

Making myself busy with work,
tiring myself out, is making everything worse.
I guess the method of keeping one self busy to forget things is not working for me anymore...

Life is in such a mess for me right now,
I..........am tired of this life....

2010-06-14T17:23:00.003+08:00

Some people mature faster,
while some people do not.

I guess I belong to the latter.
Seeing how my friends react to different situations,
I am thinking hard, what have they went through?
And me?
I am not as independent as people think I am...
When I am motivated to do things, usually the source of power is from my friends, around me.

Right now...
I am alone...............

2010-06-13T18:35:00.005+08:00

Freaking emo, I dont know why.
I miss my friends, I miss driving.

Though the NSF life that I am leading now is what most NSF would die for;
admin work,
this is not what I really want to be.

Giving me false hopes, bringing me up.
Then dropped me down, with a reply say it may not work.
It's torturing to me, I feel wasted, I feel weak.
I am praying everyday that time would pass by fast.
Hoping that my friends from other unit will sms me, update me,
so that time wont pass so slow.

A qualified driver, doing what an Ops Spec do.
In the first place, why do I learn driving?

Hope after I am done with what I am suppose to do now,
I can go to the unit that I want.

Right now? I have to stop thinking so much,
thinking so much wont help anyway.
As each day passes by, I can only pray...

I am sorry that anyone who reads my blog has to keep reading my same rants and grunts over and over again..
Do people still my blog in the first place......?

I dont wish to keep typing...
If only I can find someone to talk to...

:'(

2010-06-06T21:05:00.002+08:00

Finally after 4 weeks, I met my dear AFV friends. Though not everyone was there, at least I got to meet at least 2 of my friends that I missed the most, Josiah and YongHao. It was great to see them after so long, at least I can see that they are doing fine. Somehow, I don't know what to talk about when I see them, but I got a lot of stuff to say. I guess seeing them is enough for me.

Met them at Army Market @ Beach road, then went to K Box with Darren, JianXiang, XianYing and YongHao. Sorry to make you guys go K Box, when I saw their tired faces, it makes me feel bad. It was suppose to be their rest day, and I made them go K Box with me. Though everyone was ok with going K Box, but I still feel that I should have given up the K Box time in return for their rest.

All in all, it was a good Sunday spent with my friends. (:

But I still wish I am in an active battalion. ):

2010-06-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

2010-05-19T16:46:00.002+08:00

Sobbing like mad, I cant remember when was the last time I cried so hard for something. I couldn't catch my breath. Now my reason isn't because of company, it's because I can't accept the fact that I went through so much shit and I have to do this kind of work now.

No one to pour my sorrows to, what am I suppose to do?
It's unfair for me, why am I the one?

This turning point is too wide a turn for me,
I am tipping over.

Sob

2010-05-15T08:03:00.002+08:00

Slept at 3am, woke up at 7am. Usually I would sleep till 10am, I dont know why.

I miss my friends.....sobsob..

Give me a slightest chance of hope....

2010-05-14T21:52:00.005+08:00

I scraped my previous post that I wanted to blog about 1 week plus ago, something about responsibility. But now, I guess that post will deem redundant......

I am posted to 2PDF, something that I thought it wouldnt be so bad, but until the other person who went with me was......someone which everyone in my course disliked. My superior was also puzzled why he came here, I dont know why too. It's a mental torture, seriously to be around him. It's just....disturbing I would say. Even other people who met him for the first time said, "Ya, can see, he's abit slow." Pardon me, abit?! It's like we are using i7 core now, he's still using Pentium 1. Maybe I guess that's why he was posted here. He wont get to see the vehicle, let alone touching the steering wheel. Maybe that's why he was posted here to keep him out from trouble.

I am still depressed that I have to spend the rest of my NS life with him, my encik still tell me to try accepting him for the way he is. Please, if I were to accept the way he is, and make him my friend, I would be retarded, and I would have already done so earlier since I knew him 4 months ago. Being around him is degrading my intelligence, his strange accent, and impoliteness to interrupt other people's conversation is the key factor that everyone dislikes him. I dont even want to look at him when I speak with him. Is he that oblivious to how other people treat him? Or he is trying hard to get people to accept him?

I dont feel guilty right now, badmouthing about him. Maybe this is my retribution for treating like that during the training days. But who cares, working with me will not be easy especially when it's him.

I really hope that I can go back to the active unit. I really missed driving the vehicle. That is one factor, the other factor would be I missed all my friends. Being here alone sucks, especially with someone that I cannot and dont want to communicate with.

This feeling sucks, and am I always the one to experience this?

I am exhausted........

2010-04-18T18:45:00.003+08:00

I wish, I could be there when you are feeling down.
But you were always able to get over it somehow.
I am relieved, but am I able to give you what you're looking for?

Cross country is over, public road driving soon.
Somehow I am not looking forward to it.
I hope it will pass by fast.

The weather has been really crazy lately.
It has somehow affected my emotions.
Tired, but I am glad I have my coursemates around.
They are a lively bunch of people which never fails to keep me laughing,
and the encouragement.

Thank you guys.

2010-04-16T23:59:00.001+08:00

Had dinner with my poly clique friends at Badoque@Simpang Bedok.
Went to my friend's house before that, and he dropped me off at Simpang Bedok.
Though not everyone was present, but still it's a good dinner.
I wouldn't mind going back for dinner again.
The steak is....I would say....humongous.
Pictures are not with me, so I have no evident proof.
But I really had difficulty finishing it.
When it was served, I was shocked at the portion of it, and it's only 16 bucks.

Glad that everyone is still doing well;
Nisa got herself an iPhone, it's about time she upgrade her phone.
But not with a make-do screen protector. Gaozheng said it was like she cut it out from the front of a plastic file.

Malyna got a job in NParks, as a plant records officer. She is taking CUGE courses for free!!! How I wish I don't have to go through the life of an NSF.

Elfie, pending status, but still involved in his NCC activities. Passionate I guess, I will never be interested in taking part in uniform groups. Glad I didn't took it during my secondary school.

Gaozheng, still surviving, hope he can make it through the remaining time of his NSF. He's gonna ORD before me! WTH. Hais.

WenXiang, my look-alike, 8-5 clerk at Naval Base, wears civilian clothes to work. He got admitted into NUS! Congrats, hahahaha. Finally someone in our clique is going take a Bachelor degree!

Whereas for me, a driver. I hope I don't forget my Horticulture stuff after my NSF life. I want to further my studies in this line, I want to see plants everyday!

All in all, good time spent with right people. (:

2010-04-05T21:07:00.003+08:00

Was looking for a picture to go with this post..
But I don't know what kind of picture that I want to go with this post.

Well,it's been long since I play with Photoshop...
I got a feeling I lost a bit of touch to it. Ok, maybe quite a lot.
Well, last two weeks were just slacking in air-conditioned environment and wait..
Wait...and wait for our news on when my course starts...

Finally, the wait is over. The course started today. Well, it's a stay-in course. So I'm suppose to be in camp at this moment, but the 9 of us only got the news that we were supposed to bring our stay-in stuff today. Hence, we had a nights out for us to get our barang barang and book in later at night. Somehow, I was half expecting this to happen. The other half was wishing that we could stay out for this week.

SHOOTS! This is so mentally draining. Course just started today and there is a theory test this Friday?! Thick course manual, short period of time...Let's just hope it will be a smooth journey for me.

My course would be 5 weeks long. I certainly hope times flies. Somewhat, I can't explain or understand what is this emotions that I am having now.

Maybe I don't like the idea of staying in?
Or maybe I am too tired from Sunday's events; waking up at 6am and slept at 12 midnight?
Or maybe my mind is preoccupied by you....

Alright, time's up. I need to book in....wish me luck!

2010-03-20T22:47:00.004+08:00

I felt overjoyed, but the emotion is short-lived.
Even though I passed, I still have friends who are still trying hard to pass the TP.
Somehow I couldn't feel happy for too long.

Past seven weeks was....I would say a mixture of pleasant and unpleasant learning journey for me.
Tough part was the scolding whenever I make mistake, no doubt anger accelerated through each driving lessons. Nearing the end, somehow everything took a U-turn and I received more encouragement then scolding from my assigned instructor.

Frankly speaking, I was expecting myself to pass on the 4th attempt of the driving test. Sadly, I did not and I was upset with myself for getting 18 demerit with no major fault. Somehow I felt that I let my instructor down after he gave me so much encouragement before I took the test. Other trainers were talking bad about my instructor behind his back, as his 4 trainees were already on the 3rd and 4th attempt of the test and no one make it through. They doubted his teaching. Because of this, I wanted to prove to the others that my trainer imparted whatever he knew to us. But the following day, 3 of us passed. He was overjoyed. I've never seen him laugh so wholeheartedly before. I was happy too. Did my Island Wide Confident Driving with him as well, he said words that touched me. I never thought we would be so friendly with each other. After all, he's my trainer and I'm his trainee.

Thank you Mr Tan, for the past 7 weeks. Thank you for all the teaching and tips that will aid me in improving my driving skills in the future. (:

Now, it's time for bed. I need my rest.

2010-03-14T19:25:00.001+08:00

There is an array of feelings that I am feeling right now.

So much things to express, I should have updated earlier.
But now, I am rushing. So till next time.

Take care people, drink more water.
Otherwise, you will end up like me; sore throat and dry throat. Argh.

2010-02-28T17:56:00.005+08:00

Last day of February, the 28th. It's been a month since my driving course started. To me, it wasn't easy. The form of communication wasn't what I expected it to be, it's worst. The usuage of vulgarities is just....stunning.

I couldn't say much, as I myself have also succumb to the usage of the vulgarities. For now, I am left with two weeks, and I will be able to pass out with a military driving license. That is, I hope I can pass my TP before 13th March. Otherwise, I would have to stay till I pass it, and those who pass will leave this forsaken place by 13th March. My TP is on the 7th of March, which is one week away from now. My driving skill is not as good, I don't know how to put it in words, but it's not that I am scared of driving a big vehicle, it's my trainer. Sometimes, it's just the fear of making mistakes, and being scolded for making stupid mistakes despite that I have been driving for a period of time; the lack of improvement.

No doubt it's tiring, but it's the attitude and tone of how you talk to people affects the other. Being treated like a idiot, and complaining to other people of how your trainee perform will not help in increasing his morale in driving.

I guess I said enough, thinking of it makes it worst. I can only take it as it comes.

Take care people, the weather has been hot lately. Drink more water.

2010-02-21T17:12:00.002+08:00

Many people asked,why my face always look so sad and emo.
I would reply, "Haha,it's my default face."
Smiling denotes happiness, or returning a gesture when someone smiles at you.

Right now, my face is wiped off of that smile.
Because I failed my Public Road Assessment twice, when others made it with one try.
It's quite depressing when most of my friends are starting to drive on 3 tonner, and I am still stucked at driving a LandRover.
Most of the time I did ok, but only till the moment when I took the test, my heart would skipped a bit, resulting in stupid mistakes which failed me reasonably.

After all, I guess this is army. There isn't a day that is not stressful to me.
Why is the assessor so strict in the first place?
The accessor would have it's reasons like, "We are training you, when you take your TP with your 3tonner, the tester is from SAF one. More strict and fierce."

Accept it and look forward, smiling uses less muscles and frowning.
Maybe smiling more will make me less tired and pass my assessment tomorrow.

I frowned too much yesterday and today, I'm tired now.

Wish me luck!

2010-02-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

It's Chinese New Year! Though I don't really feel the mood this year. Who knows why. My course has already started for 2 weeks plus. It wasn't really what I expected it to be, increased usage of vulgarities in camp, dusty bunks, and the food. The vulgarities are getting my nerves, particularly when the parking instructor did a demo, and everyone couldn't follow what he did. He would just swear across the the carpark at that person with strings of vulgarities. It makes that person feels humiliated and making other trainees tensed up. It maybe the hot weather that adds on to the emotions I guess. The hot afternoon sun already did it's part, by demarcating my right arm from black and white. I was also shocked when I went back to bunk and saw that my right arm is darker than my left. -_-''' And it's only my forearms that are tanned.

Assessments and tests was also something that I didn't expect. Soon, I will be driving a bigger vehicle, provided I pass my assessment. Adding on, an oral assessment on Wednesday which my theory instructor said that only a minority will pass on the first try.

On the bright side, my friends (same vocation and bunk) will be there to help me if I need help. I never thought we would bond so much even though I only get to know more than half of them only when our driver course started, as I was doing guard duty for a period of time and they were doing something else. Besides the constant "encouragement" to tell that someone (er....guess la.long story), just because I was stupid enough to disclose 4 numbers to them. -__-''' Now it's say or the pestering will continue. LOL! I hope we will all make it through the course.

Now, it's bedtime. Tired. Take care people.

imtiredofwaiting.wantingtotakethefirststepbutafraidofoutcome.

2010-02-06T23:30:00.001+08:00

ilikeherbutdontdaretosay
你要等到什么时候啊白痴?

2010-01-30T19:20:00.002+08:00

COOL! HAHAHAH.

2010-01-26T22:08:00.009+08:00

4 weeks into life after BMT, others may have already started their unit training but I am only starting mine tomorrow. Half elated, and the other half not looking forward to it. Past 4 weeks was a much more easy life compared to others who had like outfields, and siong*tough* in-camp trainings. I did guard duties, like what a normal RP will do after their course. Had irregular sleep times, and some long duty hours. Even though I don't quite really enjoy the stay, but in retrospect, it's not bad afterall. Learned new things, and I guess I still need to buck up on my communication skills hahaha.

A stay-in for me from tomorrow onwards, somehow not wanting to know how does the bunk environment feels and look like after hearing what others said when they went there for 2 days and kena rejected. Hopefully it's tolerable.

My hands itching for design. I miss Sketchup!! hahahaha.

Shall end with.....MYSTERY!!!

Once bitten twice shy;emo-ing brings me nowhere.
Affected by someone's words weeks ago,I can't seem to get over it.
I refuse to accept it,the fact? Or how some people perceive me.
Now what am I supposed to do?
I guess some stuff have to experience it,teaching won't help.

2010-01-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

Super Junior, It's You.

it's you

2010-01-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

Let me hear your voice, by Big Bang. (:

2010-01-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA.What on Earth is self potato? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ROFL!!

2010-01-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

boo.

2010-01-01T03:15:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone. Hope year 2010 will be a good year for everyone. No, I should say it will be a good year for everyone! (:

i maybe wrong,but i somehow am afraid of losing you.

2009-12-31T14:42:00.000+08:00

2009-12-27T22:19:00.001+08:00

As Christmas is over, a new year is coming. Look on the bright side is just what I wanna do for the new year. Nothing else. That's Law of Attraction! (:

Time flies, memories worth reminiscing and some otherwise. I guess NS changed my perspective a lot, I think it does to most people. You realize not everyone is nice around you. Some things may not turn out as you expected to be. Like, I always thought being an IC is something fun and challenging to take on. However, I am eating my words now. I was appointed (unexpectedly) to be the IC of a group at my induction programme. NOT FUN, and it's STRESSFUL. Haha,but it's still good experience. Two more days!

At this period last year, I guess it was the most memorable. Christmas, first time I dealt with live Pine trees, and doing decorations that I never thought I will be touching in my life. I somehow miss the hectic times that I once went through during my IAP. Rushing for Christmas décor, and staying up late to rush for the deadlines. People might think that I'm crazy, but it's some experience that I would like to go through, at least I would learn something useful from it.

I guess I missed a lot of stuff, heard that SBG had 150 fresh Pine trees all around the gardens (it's the 150th Anniversary if some might not know), and I was most of the time lazy to leave my house and go down to take a look. Well, I was sick right after I POP. Till my birthday.

So I had a few meetups here and there, not much though, and I went to look for Nisa. Glad that she's still doing fine, ever bubbly, hahaha. Others, I guess they are doing fine, from either reading their blogs or chatting with them online. The meeting is taking forever to happen, hahah it's nobody's fault when everyone's schedule is packed, and the guys booking in.

Ohh well, I shall stop here for now. My right knee hurts like crap, is it the weather? D:

say or dont say?

2009-12-17T23:51:00.010+08:00

I could only stand by the side and do nothing.
All I could do was just smile it off.
The motivation is not there anymore.
What happen to me?

I am addicted to this song, Wedding Dress by Taeyang.

2009-12-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

Yes, new change. After two years.and two days. My last change was 14dec2007.and now its 16dec2009. So now I can say byebye to my old aeroplane blogskin.

<<< I made it myself.

Nothing much I wanna blog about. Wanted to blog a lot,but somehow I forgot what I wanted to type.

Ok will update soon again. Tired.

2009-11-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

Mucuna bennettii

2009-11-15T18:36:00.004+08:00

Mucuna bennettii (Red Jade Vine), a vine with pendulous red showy flowers. Something like Strongylodon macrobotrys (Jade Vine), but its rarer. I came across it in a book about Singapore as a garden city when I was at Harris today. Didnt buy the book though, but the showy flowers somehow caught my attention.

Mucuna bennettii originated from New Guinea but can be grown in the tropics. I cant remember the location of the plant stated inside of the book. I guess it needs an adequate amount of space to grow this woody vine.

I got the pictures from toptropicals.com. :)

So yupps, that's it for now. I can use my computer only to two weeks later as I will be confine for this following weekend due to sit test. So just wanna update abit..

My left thumb feels numb now, hope I dont get any infection from the ET blade cut.zz..

So till now, take care peeps!! The cold weather is coming once again...somehow I wish to go back to my IAP period and start decorating places for Christmas...I missed those times.......

2009-11-07T19:06:00.001+08:00

why? do i only learn swimming at this age?
sucks.

2009-11-01T12:01:00.000+08:00

Cut down on the vulgarities please.

2009-10-17T11:24:00.001+08:00

Shagged.

Will I survive...?

P.S My bro just asked if I got do pushups everyday while in camp,and I told him that I have to wake up at 0530 to do exercise. And he said no wonder my arms look bigger. HAHAH.

2009-09-22T23:13:00.002+08:00

empty...as ever..

it's been long...

2009-09-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU MARK CHOO!

For the Doritis pulcherrima var. alba. (:
For the times we worked together.
Thank you for all the orchid knowledge.

Sorry that you have to put up with my broken English at times,
and my 冷嘲热讽, and my weird temper.

I think I learned more from you than you learned from me,
I think you will forget what I teach you lor. -_-''' Hahahah.

Enjoy your Germany trip (:

And I still got one week to go...zzz.........

2009-09-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

As the time creeps...

I can feel it...

2009-09-13T17:49:00.001+08:00

Tabebuia riparia and Tabebuia rosea are flowering...
All around Singapore...

2009-09-12T13:21:00.002+08:00

la cha la cha ta ta~

2009-09-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

我绊倒了...

可能没办法再爬起来...

2009-09-06T18:51:00.002+08:00

我想我所犯的错可能无法弥补...
在这以前我并没有期待什么
我想这也是我迟早都得面对的...

任命吧，罗铭杰...

2009-09-06T02:04:00.007+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. I was just plain lazy...Well it has been 6 months since I started working in Ngee Ann as a part time research assistant. I'm glad that I still can get to work on something that I like, if not I would have forgotten everything that I studied in my past 3 years, haha. Soon, it will be my turn to serve the nation. Not really looking forward to it I must say.

Mark..playing his iPod Touch I think.hahaha.

Work was ok. Lucky that I am working with Mark. At least I still get to learn new stuff almost everyday. I worked with Iqbal from March to mid April. Then worked with Gloria till end of June. And then Mark joined in June, till now. And XueFen is in the same office with me since mid June! XueFen is the new HLM TSO, to replace Estya. As Estya is pursuing her studies, at NTU. Forgot what course already, hahaha. Some science and bio degree, hahaha. Go read XueFen's blog if you want to know how she is doing.

interiorscape for Alumni Dinner

Work was somewhat similar to my FYP that I did in Year3. So nothing much, but just data and more data every week. I got to do 2 interiorscapes with Mark; Alumni dinner and HLM Fest:Landscape Model Competition. Quite tiring, but good experience. I learned a lot from Dr Koh and Mark. And GardenTech, my duty was on a Sunday! T__T lucky the weather is cool. Hahaha. And I bought two Phalaenopsis, hope they wont die on me -_-''' first time for me to grow something that I bought myself (:

XueFen and Esther eating Marvelous Cream @IonOrchard

So besides work, we have been helping XueFen also, like cleaning up and stuff. To me I think being a TSO needs to know a lot of stuff and its like preparing for battle everyday. Even after practical, you still got stuff to do, and it keeps on piling no matter how much you clear everday, which I mean paperwork. But it's a good experience, and lucky you got nice people around to help you. I confirm guarantee chop 2 years will be very fast over liao. Hahaha.

On top of work, I am also helping on an outreach programme with my lecturer with Commonwealth Secondary on an eco-pond and hydroponics project. You must be wondering what can I help in the project right? GOOGLE SKETCHUP. Initially I thought I might not touch the program after I graduate, but I guess I spoke too soon -_-''' Teaching them was quite ok, they ask too many questions -______-''' A Sec2 girl even has a FB account!! Unbelievable man, when the kids see me walking near them, I can see them pressing Alt+Tab to switch away from the browser to Sketchup. -.-''' They thought I cant read the words on the taskbar which says "Facebook | Home" hahaha. Whilst I am involved in the outreach programme, Mark is working on another project on Vertical Green on a wall behind a bus stop near NgeeAnn. NP's principal wanted it. HOHOHO.

He doesnt like Sketchup ~~much~~ alot. Much was an understatement. I really felt the moody aura exuding from him. It was a Monday morning, and XueFen and I heard him whining away. Seriously, for the whole morning, the office was dead quiet with occasional whinings, with a frown on his face. Hahaha.

Run tags; Mark's 17A and my 17G.

And we took part in a run too! Project Nutz. The event name somewhat sounds familiar to me, but we never actually really take notice of it. So it's a relay run, with 7 runners in a team. I was the last member -_-''' and Mark was the first runner in my team. Hahah, our team made it to the 4th in the Staff catergory! Hahaha,first time in my life I won a sports medal -_-''' I never actually take part in any sports event in my primary and secondary school life, so somehow I felt happy about it (: After the run, I couldnt feel my legs -.-!!!

I still not quite sure how my future will looked like, I dont know what am I going to study. Before that, I definitely have to work. If not who's gonna pay for my fees? Just thinking of it makes me lethargic. How long do I have to work? Where am I going to work? By then I am already 24 25? Or even older...After 2 years of serving the nation will I forget what I learned? Hais...

Ok pictures.

Euodia

Passiflora! [:

It's called Garden of Hope I think. I like the entrance! Made of curly willows!!! XD

Interesting art piece in the Garden of Hope

Somehow I like the arrangement of the plants and the pavilion [:

Ok I shall stop here now and update another time. Too much words already, even for me.

2009-07-07T22:45:00.001+08:00

So tired to type in full sentences. Maybe another design coming up.

I was in the MRT, and a kid was screaming, but I somehow felt happy about it. It was screams of happiness, and blissfulness. His mother was tickling him. Somehow it's heartwarming, on a cold rainy day....
Work! Tiring. But I still get to slack sometimes,and it's considered more compared to my previous research project. Hahaha.
Ipod Touch (:
I wanna go shopping :(
I need to sleep! :((
I want to run!shiok weather to run!! :))
I wish, I would know some stuff, still.

Alright,need to get back to my Photoshop.zzz.

2009-06-29T22:18:00.004+08:00

What love can do to make people sounds as if he has a PI's number on his mobile's speed dial.
And does quite thorough analysis on a certain eye-candy.

HAHA.

Short entries for now. Will elaborate,if I remember and have time.haha. (:

2009-06-28T12:03:00.001+08:00

A Silent Killer trying to take an Emergency Shower.
A featured film that can only loan out for 4 hours.

HAHA.

2009-06-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

But nothing ever happens...and I wonder....
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I wonder how..
I wonder why..

2009-05-28T21:58:00.005+08:00

Make a guess.
I took this LONG TIME AGO.

This picture is useful for you, Malyna.hahaha.

The headaches are back. =X

// edited at 12:59am, 30th May 2009.

It's Argyreia nervosa. Hahaha.
Maybe the leaves give a little hint?hahaha.

2009-05-24T21:29:00.004+08:00

I was there. So near yet so far.
I guess I lack of the confidence...
Ohh well, that's still next time...

YAY!

Still not certain how to continue...Botany?Floriculture?Plant Science? Or LA? =S

2009-05-20T22:11:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHA.THIS ONE IS FUNNY!
I CANT STOP LAUGHING AT THIS!!!
在给我一点温柔 la!!!
This is the full version btw, those airing on TV now are cut. hehe.
Lucky I am not those who sing out loud. HAHAHAHA.
I feel like going there and watch people sing.hahahaha.

2009-05-10T21:57:00.003+08:00

Echoes unheard.
I have changed to keep quiet at times.
I realized my words hurt people sometimes.
Which in turn hurts myself the most.
I am not melancholic,but I wanted to type it this way.

I dare not speak, and dare not show.
And people thought I am putting a show.
It's the fear that I've got, and the echoes I heard,
That makes me lonely in this walk.

HAHAHA, ok that was lame. Was trying to act emo for awhile, nyeh. I got a big crater in my mouth, and it hurts! like always.

Run to SBG was great, now my legs are aching. This is the first time, I went to SBG without a transportation, with..only my legs! Not ideal to run in the late afternoon sun, 6km and I am baked by the time I reached SBG. =X

2009-05-05T21:46:00.009+08:00

Talk about pictures, that was more than enough for me. Big screen ehh!? Muahahahaha. But I am done with selecting the pictures for printing. (Told you Nisa, I am efficient!! =P)

Work are meant to be done during work hours, since I am kind soul who will keep quiet and does not claim any OT while doing work after working hours, I have to stop working so hard.

Life was great, occasional runs, a work though sometimes I wasn't quite sure what I am doing, but it was fun, cos of Estya with her lame talks(I dont quite get it most of the time) and a new temporary TSO who is comparable to one of my friends, so lame -_-''' guess who I am talking about.hahaha. But it never ended a day without a smile.

Went jogging/running for consecutive days! 6 in stadium and one outside with QianYi. SHIOK MAN. BBDC to Jurong Point..7km I think,she said it's not accurate..so..around there I guess? I didnt stop, except at traffic lights. FUN. GO RUN AGAIN SOON OK!? Hahaha.

And today, knowing that there were people at the LSCT garden after I helped them moved some tree over there, I decided to drop by after work. Yes, after 5pm, hahaha. Chit chats and laughing at why I got C or C+ and never B's or A's for Mr Saiful's modules, he said his standards was too high. Now then you realize ar? hahaha.

LEMONGRASS, I like the smell!!! Like the Honey lemon sweet that I liked.hahahah. Mr Saiful "harvested" them from Loy's, Nisa's and Mel's FYP. Hahaha,COOL RIGHT?! The plant is super big now.haha.

They are trying to revamp(i think so) the garden. I like watering the plants there, but I can really take a long time. I tried once, and I took almost 1.5 hours. HAHAHAH. Somehow,it's more peaceful for me...than facing the computer..or whatever...

Said and unsaid...

Head hurts, to the back of my eyes.
Weather? Or tireness........?

2009-05-05T00:22:00.004+08:00

From: morenewmath.com

That's the way dude.

2009-05-01T23:37:00.003+08:00

I like the colors.
Auto-colored(Picasa3) of course,my camera doesnt do wonders like this.
A tree that I dont know the name..
Maybe it's sick...
Or its characteristics....

I see no point in pruning a tree into this..
I find it an eyesore..spare some thought will ya pruners?
I think it's taller than 10metres..
Maybe it will survive..
Again, my knowledge is not that vast, it's an unknown tree to me.

The run continues...

2009-04-25T22:05:00.002+08:00

2009-04-23T22:05:00.008+08:00

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The weather is crazy or maybe...

It is angry at how humans are exploiting nature,
taking everything for granted...

Angry at the numbers of cars on the roads nowadays
as compared to last time...

Angry at despite the hot weather that it gave,
the aircon is still cooler in offices, giving a little comfort to users.

It was too close a comfort for me, (Too close for comfort, McFly)
the exposure of the extreme temperatures is giving me a spilt headache,
and a feverish feel.

Works piling up on me, someone is still waiting for my design.
Shows yet to watch, games just started and yet to continue.
Neverending games on FB...(RC!!)
and my pay may not come in as stated...
I am tired, I wish I can sleep for a long long time............

2009-04-20T19:48:00.004+08:00

NEW ONE!

Starts with C.
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BOOOOOOOOMMMMM!
Hahaha.

P.s I did not take this with my camera. =X

//edit 22nd April 2009, 22:59PM

Hais, ok. It's Couroupita guianensis, the Cannonball tree. It's the fruits, that's why it's called Cannonball tree.

No more I guess. I looked stupid doing all these. Ohh well. =S